Die,John,die

is there a way to express great amounts of pain,sorrow, anger, jealousy, love, hate, joy, and the feeling of utter loneliness and failure all the the same time in words or music? if there is please enlighten me...I hate this feeling but all I want to do when I get it is blow the blood hell outta something...Elena knows a lil of what I mean, only cause she saw me like this....I want to express myself but I can't..there's no way to write it for the reader to catch all that I'm going through and no song that says all the right words....uhhhhh....this is wrong but sometimes I want to die with frustration

Angel in the night

Picture Perfect

Their perfect....thats all there is to it. 100% Perfect, beauty, pose, background....everything about them is perfect. And whats more is I love them both.

how we express our emotions

It's interesting to see how ppl, as well as myself, express ourselves with our different emotions.w

When some ppl are sad the more common way to express themselves is through poetry in some form or another, some do better then others, some with music, and sadly some with actions which harm themselves and/or others...

.When depressed, well I can't speak for a lot of ppl, but personally I like to be by myself, in nature...somehow that helps me calm down a bit, or listen to really loud music, or punch something and just take out everything I have welled up on something...no worries not on a person...or just talking to someone about whats going on and just letting everything come out that I have...for the person that is being talked to, here's a pointer I've found works wonders...less talk more listening..., everyone can talk but to be able to listen and pay attention is a lifesaver...the talking will come but not then, first let the other person do the talking....it even helps me when I talk aloud to myself, sometime ppl don't want to talk to u cause they think u need ur space to vent, wich is true at times...so I go ranting to myslef out loud...and it's true what G'pa said in "say it out loud" if u talk in ur head u'll still have the boiling feeling inside, but if u say it out loud, even yallin it, by the time ur done u feel a lot calmer and ready to talk to someone else with thats left...and by the time u get there, well most of the time anyway, I forget what I wanted to say before when I was mad.

When happy, I've noticed u want to go outta ur way to be a help whenever and where ever u can, speaking from a guys point of view I like helping girls out more then guys but the principle applies. I mean it's just the way it is, u just want to be a help..even without realizing it.


OK, I know there's only supposed to be 3 forms of emotions. Mad,Sad or Glad...but I'm gonna throw in a fourth. and that is depended on...
when u know someone is depending on u, u...or I should say most ppl take on the responsible role..ok I'll speak for myself I guess..that's the way I am..when a friend or a group of ppl are depending on me, or even if their not, if there's chaos and no one is leading, I just take up the role..sometimes to the point of pushing my luck in certain places..like giveing orders to my parents.but always ppl have been happy that I did cause someone had to...as in a few cases that happened a yr back...

trix of the mind

it seams I haven't written much lately besides some poems..I guess that because nothing is going on that is really worth writing about. life go's on as normal the most part.
I was think how long it is till I leave the states, 2 months. and I started thinking about it..and 2 months isn't really that long..it sounds like a long cuz in ur mind it is, but it'll sound longer if u put it into daz and longer still if u look at it in week, 63 days or 8 to 9 weeks..but then I started to think and look over past weeks and I noticed how fast the weeks go by. it seems one had barley begun before it's already over and the next beings..so really 2 months isn't that long..it's just the way we think, we make it sound like a long time in our minds...I guess a lot of things are just "in our head"..so I have less time to get ready then I then I thought

Tears

To a time that was and never to be the same again.

I shed a tear.

To feelings shared and love thought to never end.

I shed a tear.

To battles won but good men lost.

I shed a tear.

To your eyes so bright, though tears they can't fight.

I shed a tear.

To a time that was...and never to be the same again.

Here,here.

I shed a tear.

Dedicated to Kathy Vitali. I know what ur feeling and going through. And Elena Vitali, thanks for the wonderful memories I love you, still and always......Even death can not stop true one, it can only delay it.

few but one

eyes that glow, teeth that shine.

the taste of blood just waiting to be mine.

the howls at night to the moon so bright.

the morning dew freezes to ice.

we are few but we are one.

we hunt in packs, we don't kill for fun.

our breath smokes as it leaves our face.
we run in the snow in the amazing race.

we are few but we are one.

Cry

I scream without words
I cry without tears.

torn inside
craving to die

pleading to the sky
please hear this babies cry.

Big Buck Bunny

this is super funny and cute

Man vs. Wild: Bear Meets Camel

I would have put a interview of this guy up but I couldn't fins one anyhow this guy is my hero,Bear Grylls, I've never met him but he has defiantly has my respect. comes second to Steve Erwin in my books...I think I'll add meeting him to the list of things I'd like to do before I die. He's just incredible

my look-a-like

can't u see the resemblance??
slow,lazy ,likes to sleep, and has long shaggy hair... it's....it's perfect