The Reason

so I'm getting my first promotion at work...oh joy..more hr's...the only good thing is..it means money...the only reason I'm getting it is cuz the other guy that worked there quit so I stepped up a notch..no it had nothing to do with the fact that I did twice as much work in half the time as him..or that I was fast or did my job right the first time..have the family and my parents to thank for that...probably wont hear that very often mom and dad...... anyhow..so he quit so I get more hr's and more money,,yippy-kia

pray for me

I never thought I'd say this, maybe it's just the boredom talking, but I kinda miss my bro mike...ya thats for sure boredom talking...I guess it's cause mike knows how to turn the most boring, stupid or depressing circumstance into something fun, crazy, interesting...well ya and stupid.....thats when he's not playing world of war craft that is...but I guess there is only so many times u can shave ur head, check ur mail, watch tv...or just be a bum on the couch before u start to go crazy that war craft looks fun.

Careless Whisper

beach

I went to the beach yesterday..and to a concert...but that will come later...here are some of the pix of a Navy ship that was on the beach..

I went to the mall today, and Mannie was talkin to the lady about the Asian zodiac and was telling her what her yr ahead will hold and such...Mannie was getting all into it, so she's like "John u should totally see what ur's is"...so why not I did..I was the horse..so the lady started telling me about my yr..and so far everything she said will happen has...# 1. this isn't gonna be a good yr for me...honestly so far it hasn't been my best. #2 I will go through a very tough break up....I have, my hardest yet. #3 money will come and go...like I've been given money but have had to spend it on food and what not..so also has happend. and #4 I will get hurt and it will be bad and I'll be in pain...now this was the tricky one, cause this yr I have been hurt pretty bad and was in pain..Grace and Mishi would know what I'm talking about...but there's still 8 months left in the yr I could always get hurt again. however seeing that the first 3 things have already happened I'm inclined to think that the fourth has also...but if not...bring it on

HIM - When Love And Death Embrace

today is my one month mark for being back in the states...time go's faster when ur haveing fun thats for sure....seemed like a yr ago I came here...anyhow, these are some of the things I've got done this past month 1. got a cell 2. got my drivers license 3. I got a job 4. I'm gonna be a model...as surpriseing as that sounds...like whoever thought me, John, would become a model some day...I was shocked myself when I was told I'd make a "great model"...we'll see how it go's I guess...
I have to say at most...no all of these things would not have happend with out nates help hooking me up with friends and makeing me call around and learn how to get around by bus and bike....oh and ofcourse Mannie who helped me a ton, driving me around and picking me up and all...her and nates would play like "good cop, bad cop" with me..not like a game but u know...since I'm his bro nate was the "mean" one..no he was concered that I was set up before he left...it's all good...
so now I guess I just have to see how I do at work...if I do good the boss will send me around on shows and stuff..super cool...
all I need to do now is be happy with myself....still working on it

Over My Head

I sware

“By my mother's name, I will draw as you say 'draw' and sheathe as you say 'sheathe.' By my mother's name, I will come as you say 'come' and go as you say 'go.' ” by the light and my hope of salvation and rebirth...this I sware

say cheese

ok we sound really bad...like really bad...but it's the first time that I've sang in public...but I need to practise some more

Lost Without You - Delta Goodrem

party time

so we went clubbing again tonight...Livi came to visit us so we went out...it was fun...Livi and I started rock'n out towards the end, I normaly don't get out of myself much...but the music was good so I figured what the heck

memory lane

so my bro and I were decorating out apartment today. we have our sis's coming over this weekend so it needed it to look good....well out walls were pretty bare so we decided to pull out the fam photo suitcase and have a look to see if there were any good family ones we could put up, also weir planning on making a entire wall in memory of our bro Matt, well as u can see...things got srazy....a quick lil scan turned into a indepth blast from the past, nate even went and pulled out his own photos and started going threw them..it was a fun,scary time...oh..don't worry mom all ur pix are fine weir gonna copy them first

Poison

if u give u will receive

when I left Germany I had forgotten my mp3. at first I was bummed about it cuz it had been a gift...but then I was thinking about it and figured that one of my friends there would probably like to have it, and I could always get a new one a lot easier then she could. so I wrote her and told her that she could have it and only a few hr's later my bro came home and told me I could have his ipod shuffle, cuz he got a new one...it was cool, cuz it only made me feel better about giving away my mp3

my room

here's some pix and a vid of my room

He's Alive by Dolly Parton

Happy Easter

I promised Chris I'd put this up...if u ever see it that is chris

just some pix

so I've been back in Houston for 2 daz now..at my sisters place. the flight back wasn't that bad...a bit miserable but there wasn't anything anyone could have don't about it..so ya.
so fare I've been super bored, my sisters work and so I stay home, but since they just moved to this place they don't have internet yet and I didn't have much to do. I never thought it was possable for me to say this but I'm sick of movies and music...I lost count of how many movies I've seen these 2 daz, and listened to almost every cd they have that I know..I can't complane to much though, this is like my time of "peace" before the storm, my challange starts next week, well actually it starts tonight, my bro is gonna get me tonight and I'm gonna be going to San Antonio and stay with him, the challange is I have 3 months to get set up enough to be able to be on my own, why? cuz in 3 months he has leave from anywhere between 3 and 6 months..meaning I'll be on my own...so I need to find a job, a good one at that, make friends, and be comfertable enough to hold out for that long on my own...not totaly the easist thing for me to do but then not like the end of the world eather, Nates being a huge help and several of his friends have already offered to help me out. thats not to say I don't need prayer..I do..please really pray for me... a yr is a long time and I haven't even been out a week yet, I alreadt miss a ton of ppl already and this aren't gonna get any easier I'm sure. I have things I need to learn, habits I need to break so this is gonna be one rough ride and I can use all the help I can get...

nothing is certain. Only the Lord

things twist and turn, plans go wrong and things don't seem right, I'm so glad the lord never changes...
things have taken a bit of a turn for me, for the worse I guess u can say, I'm going back to the states...gonna be living with my bro, having to go to school and get a job and all that...
I found it's true that u can try to run from our sins but eventually they'll catch up and find us again...well mine have found me and now I have to pay the price, hence me having to go back to the state for a time. please pray for me, this is something new for me and I'm honestly a bit nervous, I'm sure the Lord has things to teach me or this wouldn't have happened.

break my fall

here and gone

Man, has it really almost been 3 months since I fist got here? time really go's fast when ur haveing fun...sadly all good things seam to have to come to a end..dispite my mom's efforts I haven't been able to get my Maltese passport so I have to leave Germany, which I really don't want to do I really like it here...so I might go to Turkey for a while till I can get my paperwork taken care of, or, I'll find some way to get a visa or go to a country here thats not a part of the EU. eather way I'm pritty sure that when I do get things worked out I'm gonna come back here, it's like my home now..I love it here, the ppl are awesome and everything else it super cool

choices

choices, choices, choices....man...I have 3 weeks to figure out what on earth I'm going to do. my paper work wont come for about 3 months, so I can't get my Maltese passport for a while but in 3 weeks I have to be outta Germany or get a visa or something.
right now my options are either go to Turkey with my parents or go back to the states and have to start from scratch to raise the money to come back or to go wherever from there.
the pros' and cons'...
Going with my parents..

.Pros'.1. I can stay in Europe and as soon as I get my Maltese passport come back to Germany.2. I can maybe still go to Malta in the summer with my bro.3. I wont be to far from here so I can maybe see Grace again before she moves.
.Cons.1. this will be the second time that I left home and had to go back with my parents, at least I lasted a month longer then last time.2. no offense to my parents but we get along with them so much better when I'm not with them.

Going back to the states with Nate.

Pros'. I can learn what it's like to have to "stand on my own 2 feet"...is that really a pro?
.Cons. 1. I'd have to leave the family.2. I'd have to get a job.3.Nate would want me to go to school.3. I'd go insane of being alone in a house..u know the feeling? I've grown up around so many ppl, then to just be in a lil apartment with one bro...it's a huge change. 4. the thing I fear the most, I'd get stuck..start to like the life out there and end up staying.

now if I was one of those ppl that went about life by wich opption had more cons then pro's I probably wouldn't go back to the states...I guess I'll have to pray about what to do and what doors open up. keep me in your prayers y'all

my new hair

I cut my hair today for the first time in 4 yr's...I just needed a change, and it looks pretty good...

oh wow

I forgot to post this before, but a few weeks ago. for the first time in about 2 yr's I took off the necklace that Elena gave me...nothing big I know, but still..

LLLLLEEEETTTTSSSS BOOOOGGGYY!!

I know this is like something that you normally do at Thanks Giving or on someone's birthday but I guess here's no exact time to say your thankful for something.
I'm just really thankful that no matter what we "younger ones in our family" do, no matter how deep in shit we are, Nate is always there to help in every way he can...and it's really cool to know that no matter whats going on, I can talk to Nate and he'll do what he can to help..within reason.
so thanks Nate, even though u already know ur a "saint" ....u probably wont read this but maybe one of the other family members will pass it on

the old daz

tomorrow morning is "heavy trash" day, so of course I was out side bringing things to the front and cleaning out the garage and all that. well we happen to be looking through a box full of video's and I picked one up and it was "I can read" anyone in my fam thats older then me will know what I'm talking about. I didn't watch it or anything but I suddenly remembered some of the songs from that video and memories of Greece and stuff..it was pretty cool

pierceing

ok,I act like a "pussy" here but for those of you have have done this u know it hurts like hell. thanks for doing it for me Julz

I miss you buddy

Mike

today is my bor, mikes b-day...man he's old..21...oh well..have a good one

Angel Of Mine

I love you Julie!!

I'm a mop

yesterday I took my braids out, and as most anyone knows when u do ur hair is all frizzy...
well I took them out while I was out so when I got home one of the girls, Sonja, ask if I'd pose as a mop for a pix..and I did... she was really happy that someone finally fulfilled her cartoon fantasy...even though I don't really look like a mop

Nightwish - 7 Days To The Wolves

this is "my song"

things

here's some random pix from this weekend..we had a lil party, the theme was drug,sex,rock..I didn't have any rock clothes so I went with drugs...as did almost everyone else...and ya, the chick in green in Cheryl, if u see this mike so there I have a pic with her and u don't, the other one is Lylee...like I finally met her for real...so cool

Mr. Brightside

good times

happenings

I got my hair braided, Mishi was so sweet and did it for me..she said I have fun hair to practice on..so sweet

which one?

which do u think is better? former singer of Nightwish
Tarja Turunen

or the singer now
Anette Olzon



I think Nightwish is awesome, it's one of my fav bands but I really thing Tarja Turunen was really good..oh well all is not lost, her knew album is awesome too..My Winters Heart