picked away

people ask me how I feel
and I smile and tell them I'm fine

and they believe me and think I'm for real

but how can I expres how I feel inside
when I feel like a stone ageanst the ocean's tide

my mind crumbles and falls
just like my world around me

there's nothing left inside
but the pain and sorrow that surounds me.

piece by piece I'm being picked away
like chickens not knowing there's a fox in their cage.

as the night, slowly scraps away the sun
so does pain scrap away the man I was to become.

Death

What a beauty what a blessing

the passing of ones soul
to a differen't world.

the glory without pain will come
as the dawn brings up the sun.

the light at the end will soon be brighter
and the feeling in my soul be lighter.

welcome life, welcome death
welcome the life after death.

but for now I'll welcome death,
for my life is but a mess.

pain and sorrow will soon pass away
when death comes to take me away.

oh how long do I have to wait,
for my friend,death, to pass my way?

Nightmare

Lastnight I did something I haven't in a long, long time and I hope I don't do it again for a very very long time to come...I cried myself to sleep....
the last time I remember doing that was when I was 10, when my bro died, thats the last time I remember doing that.
I never liked crying, in public or in private, but I guess sometimes I can't hold a serious face anymore. when I feel that all I had has slipped away and the line to the boat it cut and I'm floating away with no hope or being found.
I guess there are times when the flood-gates have to be opened or be destroyed along with everything else.

I'm so foolish...but I'm also cute so it's ok

today started out as any normal one..got up at 7, had devotions, did jjt, and was cleaning the house when it started raining....my sis and Tina went running out in the rain....and tried to drag me out with them...but I wouldn't give in...till I reolized that I haven't put anything new up here for a while...so I went and changed and went running out in the rain...and my sis took some pix...so here they are...









ok...well ain't I perty?...lol...

hey,hey,hey...goodbye

I bet u thought that I'm sayin bye to everyone cuz I'm leaveing.....I wish...but thats not for a few months sadly....anyhow..today my sis Livi left to go live with her bf...Sam..good guy...anyhow..just thought I'd say it.

You, me, and Gelato

the other day, my freeday, I was really bored...I know whats new?...my sis's went out togeather so I stayed home...in the afternoon my dad offered to take the kids and myself out for some ice-cream....ok let me re-fraze that, some Gelato...nornaly hanging out with the kids isn't the #1 thing to do for my day off...but the thought of haveing gelato was to much to say no too...so we went and man oh man...it was so good...brought back so many good memories of when I lived in Italy.....I took a pic to show...as most ppl know, most of the time I'd have a pic of my, beautiful, self but this time I'll put one of my lil sis, cuz...in a way....she is a lot cuter them I am...but only in a way...ok the truth is my hair looked bad cuz it was windy and I didn't bring my bandana.

come what may

This is for u babe