Evanescence - Anywhere (With Lyrics)

I don't think I need to say who this is for....but I love her

jump sheep

we should all look at things like this Jackalope

Remembering the Alamo

This morning my mom arrived back home from spending 3 weeks in Chile, with my 2 older bro's, the only this was...she didn't really arrive here...but in San Antonio soo...my dad..acually it was my sis, came in my room at 5 in the morning to wake me up to get ready to go...thankfully we didn't leave untill 5:30 so I got another 1/2 hour of sleep...yay....I was suppost to be the co-driver for my dad, but when we started driving and my dad puts on instramentle music, with it still being dark outside and me havin only had 2 1/2 to 3 hours of sleep...I was out....I switched with my sis for the back seat the fist stop we made...she had about 3 pillows with her so that made the rest of the ride all the way to the airport more comfy for me...what the others did I have no clue, I only woke up when we got there and had to get up to help with the bags....man...being the only teen guy left in ur family can be taxing....anyhow....after my younger bro, sis and nefew said their hi's we went to get gas, where I bought a really cool lighter to add to my stash...the pic on it was the cool part......we then went to the...AAAALLLAAMMMMOOOOO!!! oh wow....for my sis it was a very moving momment to be at a place were so many ppl were killed.....my lil bro and I didn't really share her thoughts...we found the Bowie Knives and muskets a lot more intreaging...so much so that I was planning on buying one...and I even talked my parents into saying yes....how?...well it wasn't that hard..I simply walked them over to where the knives were and asked if I coulf buy a small one..and my dad said "if ur gonna get a knife, might as well get a Bowie knife" which I was more then happy to...but the one I liked was $50 and my dad said that I could probably find another one cheeper on Ebay or something...and the momment it sounded all well and good...but now I wish I got it anyway....we went around and I ended up buying a shotglass....like I'm very gonna use it but it was cool so what the heck...oh and this pink squishy thinkie..it's so cool..and yes I did choose it pink....I have no clue what's in it...looks like shampoo but oh well it's still fun to play with.....and ofcourse what better thing to do when ur at the Alamo but to read a really good book...which I did, even though my sis thought I was nuts....u know maybe she's right...huh.....and then yeah my bro and I took some pixs of me since he didn't want to be on here..and then...we went to....the river walk...wasn't anything fancy really...not even a river if u ask me...but oh well we walked around there while my dad look pics of everything that moved...and didn't move... untill the kids started complaining their feet hurt...tipical...so we went back to the van but stopped at a interesting shot or two were I got to rub a fake fat guys tummy......and then lets see...we tried going to this skyscrapper resteraunt that I really wanted to go up, but then we found out we had to pay to park and to go in..so we dropped that..and started home...I was awake this time and my mom wanted to stay with the kids in the back...I'm not the lovely-dovey one with my parents anymore...another girl has taken their place in my life...wink....but they still talked a ton and I just put my headphones on a listened to what I like to call my "motivational mood music" although some of the song brought back good memmories of the past which make me feel sad..but I don't show it...ok so we get home...home sweet home...yeah right..I can't wait to leave it....and my mom started giving out the gifts my oldest bro sent for us and the ones she got for us..I got this necklace of a lizard carved outta some form or nut from my bro and another necklace made out of another form of nut and it's seed...I'll ware then sometime or another but right now I don't think the one I'm wareing will come off.....but they were cool none the less...then lets see..she showed us the pix and video on Chile and my bro's wedding and then when all that was done with..it was my turn....I first showed her the pics of the FDTP...good times y'all....or at least teh inportant once of "key ppl" and they I gave her the gift that my........ummm....VERY CLOSE + GOOD FRIEND....and I got for her....a really spiffy black shawl..I alomst wanted to keep it, it was so cool...she love it a tons...and that...my fellow readers ends my day...unless of course I can get into me writing this and all the faces I've made at the words I didn't know how to spell..but if I've even kept u this long I don't want to over-do it....untill u read again.....good morning, good evening....and good night

A place to hide

The "Jack" inside has run to hide
and my serious side returns to play

the side that cries 'I don't care if I live or die
cause I'm already dead inside anyway.'

with nowhere to hide and this pain inside
I go with the flow as we walk on our way

my foolish side was here for a time
but seriousness was here to stay.

We have nowhere to hide
but we don't care if we live or if we die

weir already dead inside anyway.

You were always worried something was wrong
when my serious side came my way

and you were right all along
but your love was to strong, and kept it at bay.

But now your gone
so it cooly comes along to say

'I knew you were wrong
thow u dinied it all along

but I knew you'd see the error of your ways
so come along, take my hand, and let us go and play.'

But I want to be free
from this pain inside me

I need a place to hide
where seriousness seldoms finds

and there I want to stay.

Give me your love, the touch from above
to keep it again at bay

your love is the thing
that can heal all my stings

and there I long to say
so,please,give you love my way....again.

picked away

people ask me how I feel
and I smile and tell them I'm fine

and they believe me and think I'm for real

but how can I expres how I feel inside
when I feel like a stone ageanst the ocean's tide

my mind crumbles and falls
just like my world around me

there's nothing left inside
but the pain and sorrow that surounds me.

piece by piece I'm being picked away
like chickens not knowing there's a fox in their cage.

as the night, slowly scraps away the sun
so does pain scrap away the man I was to become.

Death

What a beauty what a blessing

the passing of ones soul
to a differen't world.

the glory without pain will come
as the dawn brings up the sun.

the light at the end will soon be brighter
and the feeling in my soul be lighter.

welcome life, welcome death
welcome the life after death.

but for now I'll welcome death,
for my life is but a mess.

pain and sorrow will soon pass away
when death comes to take me away.

oh how long do I have to wait,
for my friend,death, to pass my way?

Nightmare

Lastnight I did something I haven't in a long, long time and I hope I don't do it again for a very very long time to come...I cried myself to sleep....
the last time I remember doing that was when I was 10, when my bro died, thats the last time I remember doing that.
I never liked crying, in public or in private, but I guess sometimes I can't hold a serious face anymore. when I feel that all I had has slipped away and the line to the boat it cut and I'm floating away with no hope or being found.
I guess there are times when the flood-gates have to be opened or be destroyed along with everything else.