2 weeks notice

ok well it actually a 13 day notice but close enough...in 2 weeks is my 18th birthday...for all those of u that know, good for u, for those that didn't...thats what this is for...yeah....so if u can, write me or call me...if u don't have my number then ask and I'll give it to u...same with my addy..
ight mark it down on ur calendar

Elena's Christmas gift

this was the pay off of a few weeks of planing with Kathy...
what I did was get Elena a Victoria Secrets gift card and send it to Kathy, but sent Elena a card for Kathy so that she's think I didn't send one for her..which is what happened...it might not look like a lot to , but for me, it's everything..I love it

Josh Groban Noel Ave Maria

Fexable key learning...

Leila I'm gonna use the same key as u....but with a lil change to the pic...here it go's....

Key Promise:

The keys of flexibility will help you to bend without breaking.

I feel like ****

I don't know...maybe it's cuz I miss ppl or that I'm bored or one of any number of things...personally I think it's both of the above...but mainly the first....
I may not act it but I'm really a sentimental guy...I mean there is probably a memory for some person with every song I listen to...thats the way it works song attach to ppl, ppl to places, and place to what happened and if I so much as think of one of those things it all comes to me...
not that I'm listening to music right now...just lookin through blogs but I guess it has the same effect on me.....I like all my friends...my real friends that is...and I miss them a ton too...some more then others... but still miss the others too...
theres this one friend I have,I love her to death,...and I write to her every day...and sometimes I don't hear from her in weeks...she's busy so I understand....but still I write her...I've never really like keepin a diary but with her it's almost like I am...well at least this one talks back...I write every evening about what I did that day and all the things that happened...and I have no clue if she even reads all that I send..but if I don't do it I feel really....disgusted with myself like I missed doing something every important....I don't really know why I'm writing about it here since I did write her today...but I guess it has to do with the memory thingie...
I just feel really...distant right now...there's one person who will know what mood I'm in and what I'm lookin like right now....so I guess I'll go see if there's something I can do to find my way back.

My Christmas present to me ...I'm so happy...on the outside

it should be here in a few daz...my dad doesn't think I'll learn but I plan on provin him wrong...Silas Paone said he'd teach me all he knows of how to play and I'm gonna be getting some book too...I really want to learn the violin....I think it was a good investment

thinking spot

there's something about sitting in front of the Christmas tree when it's all lit that help calm the mind and drain all the dress out of u and help u think straight...it's nice....and for a person who uses their imagination and mind a lot throughout the day trying to analyze things out...like me...it's almost like it hypnotizes you and sooths your mind for a bit...enough so that you can think straight

I met Andre Johnson

Yeah I mean the wide receiver for the Texans...Andre Johnson....he was at one of the spots I was ballooning at and it was really packed so I asked a friend why and he told me that Andre Johnson was in the arcade...so I went and I saw him....I didn't really know what I was lookin for but I saw him ....it wasn't till after he left that I figured out who he was cuz he wasn't wearing anything to show the he was a football player but I still saw him...had I known which guy he was earlier I would have asked him for his autograph or somethin but oh well.

close call

yesterday at around 9:45 or 10 I was on comp when I heard a crashing sound coming from the hallway near my sis's room and my 1 1/2 yr old nephew crying right after...I can't think of a time I've run faster in y house then I did then...charity got there first but as soon as she saw blood she handed him to me and ran and hide behind the toilet ....and then tried to crawl under my moms bed...like that could help any....I picked him up and at first sight I thought it was really really bad...we course anyone would when u see a kid with blood running down his face....I passed his to my dad who was coming up the stair, cuz I had no clue how to handle a kid that was bleeding with a 2' by 1' cut right above his left eye, and started ordering ppl top do things...my mom to go to the room, charity to get outta the way, kev to help dad or pick u the class from the mirror that had fallen, tellin Ethan and Vanny to stay in there room and outta the way and stuff like that...when something happens where I can't really do anything about it thats what I tend to do...that and get angry cuz I can't do anything...I then went to call Anjie since I was one of the only ones who was not crying and could probably tell her without making her go into a state of ultra panic...which I did a good job of doing cuz my the time I was finished tellin her she was laughing and some parts...what I told her was fact...it looked a lot worse then it really was and that dad was takin him to the hospital to get it stitched up.....
so then u would think that it was all over and I could kinda relax right? I mean he was going to the hospital, Kev and I had cleaned up the class so there wasn't anything more to worry about...WRONG...there was still my mom,charity, ethan and Vanny to calm down...and my mom was the hardest...a friend that was driving anjie to the hospital sujested I "give her something to drink" so I tried that...I made some spiked eggnog and tried to give it to her..she didn't want it...so I drank it...then we tried a movie..nope...music...again no....nothing seemed to work...
charity calmed down on her own and the kids were distracted ......but only when he came back from the hospital did she finally calm down...heck he looked like nothin had even happened ...running around crashing into stuff and trying to tell us what happened in his language oh goo's and gaa's and whatever he uses...it was quite an adventure to say the least...well not so much on his part....it was a lil crazy when it was going on but he's fine and alive so yeah PTL...

I went to the dentist

when I was a kid I used to like going to the dentist, cuz they always game me toys and candy after I was done...but as I got older I started to dislike it more and more....well today I went for my 6 month cleaning and I have to say it was probably the quickest, painless one i have had in a long time...mainly cuz my teeth were A-ok....and I didn't have any cavities...being that I'm not as much of a junk food eater as I used to be..and also the fact that once u get to were u start kissin u learn very quick to make sure u brush ur teeth and have as good breath as u can....
anyhow the whole thing only took like 10 minutes and then I was outta there...the longest part probably was waiting for the x-rays to be finished...the rest was really quick...thank god...

Dear Santa

the only thing that I really want I can't have...and thats not cuz ppl don't have the money to buy it for me...it cuz it's not a thing....it's a person...and the last time I checked u can't buy ppl...that this one for sure...I mean sure there are THINGS that I wouldn't mind having....but nothin that can much up to her....but like I said it just doesn't work to put a person on ur wish list and then find them sitting under the tree for u on Christmas morning...I wish it could be done but it doesn't...so I guess I'm gonna have a pretty bummed Christmas....such is my life

check up

I went to have a check up today, not that anything is wrong with me, it's just that I'm almost 18 and when I am Medicaid doesn't work anymore so I'm doing it all now...anyhow...so I first went into the room and sat there waiting for like a 1/2 hour and when the Doc did come she started asking me all these questions...heaving nothing to do about health or anything..such as...what were my plans for the next yr and after...do I work? if so where doing what? what do I do besides work? and on and on it went..then when the check up did start she checked my heart beat so many times u'd think I was gonna fall over dead any second.....and when she asked me if I've ever taken shots and I said no she kept going on about how I should take a tetanus shot since I do construction but I've never done it before and I'm still alive so I didn't see any reason to freak out and do it now....and plus to be honest needles freak me out.... anyhow all in all it was traumatizing...mainly cuz that they took blood from me and it was the first time I have EVER had a needle in my skin....I couldn't even look when the nurse was puttin it in my arm and when I told her I'd never had it before she thought I was gonna pass out or something...I did glance at it when she started pumping blood out and that wasn't so bad cuz it was already in...but when she put it in or took it out I couldn't look...made my stomach turn.....
well it did when my dad started tellin the stories of all the shots he got while in the navy....

oh and I found out that I am 137lbs now that is freaky...that means that since the FDTP I've lost 3lbs...

Chloë Agnew

out of all the girls in Celtic Women I think that Chloë Agnew is by fare the hottest one..some of the others are too but to me she's the cutest....but not as cute as someone I know ;)

U so totaly rock Dude.

Today I went out ballooning and it was going really slow and I was really bored..being that my sis, Anjie, didn't come with me this time so I didn't have anyone to pug in some way or another...anyhow..around 7:30 or so...maybe earlier, a friend of mine who works there came and asked me when I was gonna pack up, I told that I probably was gonna do that soon since it wasn't so good and he sujested I go in the back and play games, I told him I didn't have a card to do that with so he pulled out a card from his pocket and told me to use his..so I did..there was about $15 on there and I used the whole thing up...he had.."sourse" that would fill it back up for him whenever he wanted so it didn't matter...so thenI was trying to get tickets so I could get a prize and he was like "oh u want tickets?, come over here" and he went over to one of the game that u get tickets with and, since he worked there, he had a key so he opened it, since it needed to be fixed anyhow and he got me 600 tickets...it was so cool...so with those 600 tickets I got this cute lil guy...


and then he wanted one to, but since he worked there he couldn't so he got me another 700 tickets to get him one too...and the rest we..anj and I..used on the kids..it was fun.
I only got it this evening and I already have ppl asking me for it.

Score

no not really..I wish though..the tipe of score I'm talkin about it the one for my pre-GED test..yes I know ,PRE, whats so good about that...nothing really...but the fact the if the rumors that the pre test is ten times harder then the test itself that in that case I'll pass with flying colors for sure...I hope....the circled parts r were my scores, right, and grade equivalence's ,left, r...they may not look all the high but compared to the others in my class these were the highest .

New Life

not that this is all that big of news but hey I thought I'd tell it anyhow...this evening, mine and my sis Charity's hamsters...Lews Therin and Toots had a litter of 6 babies...their all pink and ugly right now, but thats how they always are...I only had a glimpse of one..she didn't have then all in the same place..but yeah hopfully she knows whats she's doing..probably does..thought still I'm not sure how many will survive...but even if they all do...within 13 daz we'll have to get rid of them of they'll start to mate and have more babies and I for one don't really want that.

Why Love?

Out of all the bloody games in this world, why does love have to be the hardest one? not one of the hardest, no, but THE hardest known to man. I mean blood and bloody ashes..I've played Risk, Age of Empires, poker, war, halo, Rage incoming, commandos, and all these other bloody computer and non-computer games, and for every one there is always some where or something u can use or do to cheat on it with. But love? no, there's no bloody site you can go online and find "how do you get someone who says they don't love to fall in love with you?" or go to cheat mode and write "love me" or "stupid cupid" like u can in all these other games . and the most annoying part about the bloody "love game" is it's so addicting. I'm serious, you can loose, have your heart ripped out, cut to a million pieces, betrayed, used...and all the rest but you still line back up for it again and again.
Someone should really make a anti-love pill or a rehab, I'd sure take it if I didn't bloody want to keep playing the "game". But, back to the point, why is love such a hard game to play? you can finally find the girl of your dreams..the one u'd "love forever" but when u have her...suddenly... u think that's ur in love with that girl there too, oh and that one there...and don't forget the blond in the back...is there something wrong with us humans that once we have love it isn't enough with just one person, we always have to have another that has something else we think we'd "love" .
I'm not trying to say anything bad about love, hey, I love love, I love being in love, I love to be loved, and I sure as hell love to make love...aka...sex...which comes from love, or SHOULD..I have a personal habit of never saying "I love you"..UNLESS...I do love that person in some way.
So I don't have a prob with it, I just don't get why does love have to be so hard to find, and once found hard to keep?

I'm crazy

I put up with everything for 2 weeks, not that I have any other choice, just to make a half hour to maybe, if I'm lucky, a hour phone call.
people probably think it's stupid for me to be "freakin out" over a phone call, but what u got to understand is that this phone call isn't any normal phone call...this call,that I wait every 2 weeks to make, is what "fuels" me for the next 2 weeks till I can call again.
As it is, not being able to call every week, as I used to be able to, is driving me bloody insane.
the point? I'm stupid and crazy?...
well yes, I am. not everyone is normal I guess. some people ,like me, need things, like a phone call, to keep us going.
If you know what I mean then it'll make sense to u...if you don't...don't worry one day u will.