I feel like ****

I don't know...maybe it's cuz I miss ppl or that I'm bored or one of any number of things...personally I think it's both of the above...but mainly the first....
I may not act it but I'm really a sentimental guy...I mean there is probably a memory for some person with every song I listen to...thats the way it works song attach to ppl, ppl to places, and place to what happened and if I so much as think of one of those things it all comes to me...
not that I'm listening to music right now...just lookin through blogs but I guess it has the same effect on me.....I like all my friends...my real friends that is...and I miss them a ton too...some more then others... but still miss the others too...
theres this one friend I have,I love her to death,...and I write to her every day...and sometimes I don't hear from her in weeks...she's busy so I understand....but still I write her...I've never really like keepin a diary but with her it's almost like I am...well at least this one talks back...I write every evening about what I did that day and all the things that happened...and I have no clue if she even reads all that I send..but if I don't do it I feel really....disgusted with myself like I missed doing something every important....I don't really know why I'm writing about it here since I did write her today...but I guess it has to do with the memory thingie...
I just feel really...distant right now...there's one person who will know what mood I'm in and what I'm lookin like right now....so I guess I'll go see if there's something I can do to find my way back.